upside down
down side up
it's round
round like this earth
round n its moving
sometimes its at the top
sometimes its at the bottom
and we can feel both side
because it always about
fair and square..
Assalamualaikum sunshine......
i guess i think before i just said that i am fine and i am happy.. but today way far from that.. bad news.. bad story.. bad feeling.. i dont know laa.. everytime when i am writing why it must always about something miserable..?? or it is only because life is miserable..??
it too personal but dont know where else to story besides to always pray to Allah and never forget to ask His blessing and way out from this problem. n never forget to only rely on Him.
why it always not happen as plan..?? because Allah is the best planner. its fate... i dont know. i just try to open up my mind. to think freely and positively toward this problem. but back then i dont know why is it the bad side is always come into my mind.
it feels like carrying a big rock stone at the back of my shoulder. it hard.. its heavy but its invisible.. no one understand n know how is my feeling. no one will help me.. but its oke.
but still. i am confused and dont get the answer yet. i guess my problem is not as bad as other people who got heavier problem. but somehow problem is there to be solved n not to let it be there n become harder n heavier. i am working there because i want to gain more experience but working without money also not something really exciting. its tiring. i want experience and i want knowledge but i also want money and granted from my hard work. because time is valuable. i hate to waste. wasting time. wasting energy.
should i give my believe to someone i never know. or suppose i have take my step from this. find a better place for my vision n mission or exactly back to the 1st plan.... i just dont know............
i taught i can feel easy n comfortable with my status now.. but it seems i need to kills 2 birds with 1 stone. [is it suitable] nvm... if u think you want to say something to me, just say it now... i am open for any advice any suggestion any comment.
from kindergarten to standard school to high school to matriculation to university to working(now)
i am still finding... keep trying n keep finding... what is my ambition? what is my passionate? what is my capability? what is my needs? what i want? what i need? what i can do? i just dont know. still.
from dreams to paper to the reality. i am still trying. i am still finding. and i dont found any n still confused... what i study is what i work..?? what i work is what i study?? or work is all about something else? how it suppose to be?? what exactly should happen?? is it working and study should be closely related to each other. so that we can used what we have learnt in school n college?? or is it life is always about learning process n keep learning new things.. hermm...
so how should it be when finding the best job for me now?? what should be taken into mind first?? hmmmmmmm..... i dont know.... or should i just continue my study.. keep study n no working?? i just dont know... hmmmmmmmmm......
actually one more story.. i miss someone lah.. all in the sudden.. seriously.. i keep thinking who is that someone i keep missing.. keep wondering.. WHY..??!! is it because truly there is someone here miss me a lot too.. if there is.. just do let me know kayh.. leave your comment or give me a call if only u miss me laa. coz i miss you too.. hehhehehe...
sorry to behave so weirdly lately.. its not my fault.. blame the stressed and tensed inside me.. it not me its them... hoh0ho....
thats all for now... i'll be writing when i have more problem soon.. wait for more entry soon.. sorry..
have a nice days everyday.. happy working.. happy smiling.. happy talking.. happy loving.. just enjoy every single day you have.. stop complaining coz it never helps.. [juga peringatan untk diri sndri]
bubbye... salam...
motif. gambar.?? beautiful scenery.. release tension
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