how is it going..?? hows life..?? how re u..?? what going on with u nowadays..??
me is doing fine today. not so bad and never too good.. its oke.. its oke... but actually theres something that makes me really happy about for now... at least... dalam kegawatan ekonomi ni haaa.. bukan ekonomi negara tapi ekonomi rumah tangga aku lorr.. [sejak bile berumah tangga nie.. arrghh.. ] sgt2 la gawat rase nye... ermmh.. ishhh.. later on kite smbg cite gawat ke gawai ni.. skung cite lain luh...
btw.. u know... i still got BB1m padahal da bis blaja... tapi x konvo lagi.. kire ok laa tu.. u know what i bought with that RM 250... so many to buy n at last only that can be bought from that money maybe they suppose to give us more money lorrrrrr.... and that we can spend the money buy some more novel for collection purpose.. opppsss... lari dri purpose sebenar BB1M tu di beri kepada sume student2 seluruh msia... ramai yang salah gune macam aku gak.. [tapi niat aku baik nk tolong org y tulis novel tu untk survive.. klu x bagi duit tu sure2x aku x beli buku.. hemmm]
huahuahua.. xkisah laa... tapi i dah totally habis kan semuanya on time...
dalam banyak-banyak buku tu satu jek y fully habes bace Wedding Night by Sophie Kinsella.. best laa jugak cite die.. tu yang layan jek tu... 2 hari jek da boleh habis baca buku tu... exciting bole tahan laaa...
eh. eh. ade lagi satu buku My Amazing Story Book.. tu y first abis baca n yang paling menarik stakat nie.. hak3x... bole sharing.. sharing baca ngan anak sedare lagi... huahuahua... my babby boy like that book so much... so i love it too larh... banyak pengajaran n sesuai sgt untk kanak2 bawah umur tu haaa... bole study blajo bi lagi tu haaa..
and then my precious babby mouse deer... hak2x.. wireless tu... [jakun!] xde laa... baru kan mouse tu.. yang sebelum2x ni sume dah rosak akibat suke sgt main game... aiiisssshhhh.. bukan sye y main.. org lain.. harapan makluman yeww.. hak3x..
buku-buku lain tu haaa.. xtau laa bile nk stat bace n bile pulok nak bais baca.. unknown... maybe bole jadi barang perhisan jek kowt.. kesian-kesian...
n u all nampak tak Mr Tiger cute miut tu haa... my brother brought it for me n precious from Istanbul.. i suka sgt my tiger tu.. he so cute n nampak so clever... [clever laa sgt padahal dia tu bear bear jek pong] nvm.. thanks for my brother for this ciut miut mr tiger from Istanbul tu haaa...
mmm... kenape ngan aku nie... xpernah-penah cite pasal menda ni sume.. tetibe jek... maaf.. harap korg paham keadaan aku lately ni... pape pown klu nk tau cite sebenar.. refer post y sebelum ni... hak3x...
btw.. hari ni nisfu syaaban kan kan..
maksudnya x beberapa hari lagi dah nak masuk ramadhan..
cepat btol mase berlalu..
if in this blog u can see my post about fasting tu baru jek kan....
skung da nk ramadhan balik dah...
semoga ramadhan kali nie lebih bermakna dri y sebelum2x ni...
n harap sgt x de sape2x ganggu aku dri berada jauh dri family aku puasa kali ni... hope sgt sgt this time bole puasa penuh dekat homesweet home ni.. seyesly... me is hoping..
n about the workload n what will happen tomorrow n the next day n the next day.. i will keep n keep praying for the best from Allah... insyaAllah.. may Allah bless me always..
i guess i think before i just said that i am fine and i am happy.. but today way far from that.. bad news.. bad story.. bad feeling.. i dont know laa.. everytime when i am writing why it must always about something miserable..?? or it is only because life is miserable..??
it too personal but dont know where else to story besides to always pray to Allah and never forget to ask His blessing and way out from this problem. n never forget to only rely on Him.
why it always not happen as plan..?? because Allah is the best planner. its fate... i dont know. i just try to open up my mind. to think freely and positively toward this problem. but back then i dont know why is it the bad side is always come into my mind.
it feels like carrying a big rock stone at the back of my shoulder. it hard.. its heavy but its invisible.. no one understand n know how is my feeling. no one will help me.. but its oke.
but still. i am confused and dont get the answer yet. i guess my problem is not as bad as other people who got heavier problem. but somehow problem is there to be solved n not to let it be there n become harder n heavier. i am working there because i want to gain more experience but working without money also not something really exciting. its tiring. i want experience and i want knowledge but i also want money and granted from my hard work. because time is valuable. i hate to waste. wasting time. wasting energy.
should i give my believe to someone i never know. or suppose i have take my step from this. find a better place for my vision n mission or exactly back to the 1st plan.... i just dont know............
i taught i can feel easy n comfortable with my status now.. but it seems i need to kills 2 birds with 1 stone. [is it suitable] nvm... if u think you want to say something to me, just say it now... i am open for any advice any suggestion any comment.
from kindergarten to standard school to high school to matriculation to university to working(now)
i am still finding... keep trying n keep finding... what is my ambition? what is my passionate? what is my capability? what is my needs? what i want? what i need? what i can do? i just dont know. still.
from dreams to paper to the reality. i am still trying. i am still finding. and i dont found any n still confused... what i study is what i work..?? what i work is what i study?? or work is all about something else? how it suppose to be?? what exactly should happen?? is it working and study should be closely related to each other. so that we can used what we have learnt in school n college?? or is it life is always about learning process n keep learning new things.. hermm...
so how should it be when finding the best job for me now?? what should be taken into mind first?? hmmmmmmm..... i dont know.... or should i just continue my study.. keep study n no working?? i just dont know... hmmmmmmmmm......
actually one more story.. i miss someone lah.. all in the sudden.. seriously.. i keep thinking who is that someone i keep missing.. keep wondering.. WHY..??!! is it because truly there is someone here miss me a lot too.. if there is.. just do let me know kayh.. leave your comment or give me a call if only u miss me laa. coz i miss you too.. hehhehehe...
sorry to behave so weirdly lately.. its not my fault.. blame the stressed and tensed inside me.. it not me its them... hoh0ho....
thats all for now... i'll be writing when i have more problem soon.. wait for more entry soon.. sorry..
have a nice days everyday.. happy working.. happy smiling.. happy talking.. happy loving.. just enjoy every single day you have.. stop complaining coz it never helps.. [juga peringatan untk diri sndri]