FiFie FeyCa: February 2015

Assalamualaikum

haiii... all.. how re u.. how its going.. indeed baru sebulan jek mendiamkan diri... sunyi sepi jek rumah i ni... kesian plak.. i is back all.. manyak isu sgt dlm sebulan ni xsempat nk update blog.. instead.. status Glitterati i dkt nuff pn dah bertukar jadi non - Glitterati dek kerana xde visitor kat sni kowt.. u oll da x syg kan i lg ke.. i is so sad... haish.. i need to update more soon.. insyaAllah..

well, after the sickness n restless theres comes the peace n leisure for one month, tu y btol2 hargai mase tu untk let go smua y xde dlm dunia nyata.. skung dah kembali ke dunia luar nyata btol ke mcm tu.. haha.. ni pun sbb dh kembali ke sekolah.. im back to school guys.. its time to fight again.. one more only one more to go... then i am done.. i also wish to successfully graduated like all other friends.. no more excuses..

sedih btol bila tgk kawan2 sume da abis blaja tinggal kita jek terkapai2 lagi sbb kne extend one paper due to irresponsible n sickness.. alaa bila sesuatu berlaku bnyk jek kita nak cri alasan kan.. da menda nak jadi redho jek la.. terima dgn hati y terbuka mesti ada hikmah disebalik sesuatu yang berlaku.. gpun y lain sume dah lepas alhamdulillah.. tinggal projek ni satu jek lagi.. i wont give up.. klu org lain blh.. why not me kan... kan kan kan u olls...

hehehe.. dalam keadaan y mcm tu pun semangat masih separuh separuh datang sni blk pn dgn hati y separuh2.. nak x nak je.. naik flight dgn perasaan btol ke dah nk kne blk sni smule.. btol ke dah nk start blaja smule.. nape xready lg ni... bingung... sampai la ade sorg ni duk sblh aku... biasa aku xske cakap ngan strangers.. xske cakap nga org sebelah aku or sesape jek y aku x knl especially dlm keadaan nk terima kenyataan nk blk sni dh..

so dia cuba gak cakap nga aku, dia usaha cari topik y aku suka supaya aku respond pada dia.. aku bawak buku novel by sopie kinsella tajuk wedding night.. xsangka aku bila dia tetibe summarize cite tu kat aku... wat derr.. seb baik aku dah baca.. bile plak dia baca buku aku ni.. sengal gak pak cik ni.. what should i name him ye... abg ke pak cik... his married.. 17 years of experience as lecturer.. so pak cik la ea... or am i suppose to call him 'dokte'... i never expect him that way when see the way he present him self.. jahat kan i.. tapi i belajar sesuatu la dont judge people only from the way they look.. thats does not represent anything yet until we start a new conversation with them.. i am so sorry coz look down to u.. kuikui.. xdek niat pn.. dia so humble n down to earth. rase rendah diri pn ye jgk mse tu..

i have so much fun taking to him.. seriously he is so inspiring.. at first i really cant digest what he try to tell me.. inspiring me n motivate me.. i dont really know who is he really are.. coz i never ask.. but its ok.. to meet him once is too good to be true..

ingatkan i nk hidup dlm dunia i sendiri baca novel ignore people around me mase dlm flight tu tapi tu la.. xbole elak.. dia ajak aku keluar dari dunia aku n share with the world, talk to people, share knowledge.. xsalah pn nk get to know new people instead menda bagos.. even org tu da berusia pangkat tinggi or rendah siapa pn dia.. masing2 ada kelebihan masing2.. jangan takut untk express ur self.. seriously... kenapa la aku ni xconfident sgt.. xpaham aku.. i learnt something from there too..

satu jam lebih tu biasa aku akan resah gelisah tanya bila laa nk smpi ni.. for the first time ever aku cakap.. lah dah smpi ke.. i still have so much to ask n talk to him.. kuang3x... nk tukar2 number phone mcm xrelevant jek.. xpe la klu ada jodoh mesti jumpe lagi kan.. kuikuikui..

paling best is that dia soh aku bayangkan ahhah.. i found its funny but i like it... bayangkan dalam flight tu separuh dari nya adalah family aku n family bakal suami aku datang sni untk raikan graduation aku... [wah bakal suami?? aku xdek calon ape lg.. tetibe jek kan] sweeet kan.. best kan mcm tu... smpai jek sni ambik cab g hostel mewah.. wah seronoknya.. semua org ada.. duduk tempat best.. kenapa tu sbb awk nk grad.. esk nye dtg fakulti dgn bakal suami awk nk amik jubah... cuba jubah wah syoknya jubah dua line lah.. mse degree satu line jek.. wah bangga nya.. terharunya penat lelah slme ni.. dh esoknya pulak naik stage... tgk bdk diploma degree wah aku pernah lalui nya sblm ni la... it worth what i have work for now... selamat tinggal u... akhirnya dpt tinggal kan ko.. ade rezeki blh smbg blaja tmpt lain plak... mak ayah family bakal family anak2 sedara... wah mak cik aku lah... ahahaah... sweet laaa... khayalan ni.... semoga ia menjadi nyata... akhir tahun ni jgk... insyaAllah... insyaAllah... insyaAllah... amin....

nak mcm tu.... nk sgt2 ia jadi kenyataan... semangat.. ko dtg pade aku skung aku perlu buat y terbaik untk one n only one ni... xsabar nk habis.... insyaAllah3.. smoga ada y terbaik untk aku..berusaha dan terus berusaha.... first step i always the hardest but still have to make the move.. i just have to... must!!

slow slow.. one by one.. step by step... i want to be a better person each day... byk y dia kongsi dgn aku.. tapi xtau ke relevenan nye aku nk tulis smua kat sni.. pengalaman dia smpai kat mne dia berdiri skung ni xsemudah y kita tgk.. hanya diri sndri jek y tau... cabaran dan halangan setiap org tu tak sme.. rezeki setiap org pn xsme.. so jgn nk sme kan diri sndri dgn y lain... different people different path.. tapi amik iktibar n pengajaran untk kita terus motivated untk teruskan kehidupan kita pula...

doa kan y terbaik untk kita semua guys... fighting!!

time to thesis questionnaire n collect data.. fighting!